darn it.

I feel like such a debbie downer lately!
it all started when i decided i could not use my sarcastic nature to make my life more interesting and lo and behold... i became much less interesting.
sadly today is no different. but i decided that it was my blog. my "journal" and i need to remember stuff.
SO that being said.
the wissler/crapo fam has had some really rough time this past week. in fact tonight marks our week anniversary of awful, scary news... and as the days pass more comes to head and life sucks just  a tad bit more.
i can't talk about it. so please don't ask. but i want to say i love my family.
my parents were raised by some pretty amazing people, who in turn (i think) raised some pretty amazing people.
we have been beaten down but stuck together. been strong for eachother and hopefully when it all ends we will be stronger & love eachother that much more.
my heart is super sad. i am extremely angry and i am not sure i have felt this much hate, ever.
so the everyday things in life make me grateful (this does not include kids fighting at 6:30 am).
getting out to volleyball - yay
smelling clean clothes - double yay
a computer to lurk on and forget about my woes - always has been and always will be YAY.
i am thankful for friends.
for my family.
and that i am normal. i really think i am. like i can see the real picture. even if it means that i am in the wrong or my kids are not perfect, i feel like i can acknowledge it, accept it and i think that makes me normal.
if you don't agree.. you can't comment because today its all about me being right, i'm sure ;)

anyhoodles. happier times must be ahead... but until then sorry for the lame-o drama. but i needed this for me today.. and probably tomorrow!

sometimes reality really does bite. boo.